cardona - seasons (EP, 2012) SEASONS all directions lost I am turning my views inside out as I watch the seasons pass I know for certain that I´m still here still I fear to face these flaws because they are inside my walls it was hard enough to ask for help now take your time and answer me vildhjarta - måsstaden (LP, 2011) co-written with v.bladin SHADOW Glow, absent sun. Throw your final light of hope, I´ll quench it anyway. Some will leave and some will stay, but most important; they will submit to change. The sky is darker than it has ever been. A massive night has condensed. You think that everything will turn and be alright. But where you´re wrong, I am right. Because I know something that you don´t. That´s why I must come back. I know that I can change you, it´s in my hands. This is our doom and I won´t let you live in uncertainty. For as long as you exist, I will never get what I want. Therefore I choose to suffer, and so should you. There will inevitably be resistance, I know this all too well. I have been here before. You shut your eyes and ignore all my words. I´m talking to deaf ears, but mark my words. You will never see the light of day. No one can save you now. DAGGER I don’t blame you for these disasters and tragedies. You sold your knowledge to sink the silent cries of pain. Since you don´t understand, I know you won´t complain. Come taste this poisoned daggers blade. The difference is vague between truth and fake. Come taste this blade. You are closer to me than you may think. This is a lie designed to keep you weak. A mirror maze of shadows and glass, Reflections will trick your eyes. I speak and keep disguised. It takes a critical mind to broach the lies. A most devious reason resides within me, Entangled up and floating out. Not that it will matter more, but this must be made clear: this is not a confession, this is more like a betrayal. And I will let you know the truth. And you know it´s your turn now. I have since long stopped pretending to stand on your side. And you know it´s your turn now. Days have gone and nights have passed, Still the illusion is maintained. An undertaking faced with risk and now it´s too late to dodge away. Come taste this poisoned daggers blade. These words are really empty, I left you with nothing else. It's all lies when you only know the low without the high. ETERNAL GOLDEN MONK You are here, the bringer of despair and privation, no need to be discreet in your actions. You come forth from distant soil where you are a stranger. And then you ended up far from home in exile. We greet you decent, since you are not here to stay. You´re a passenger indulging in our misery. And as we try our to seek your ends our means are to distract. You will not see the reasons, becuase they are hidden well. Doubtfullness is for the weak, such kind is the lone deranger. Is unforgiveness what you seek? Then you are marked a stranger. We misdirect your sight and feed you with decoy. You smile and think you know it all and we will play along. Let us be and walk your way. Remember what you have seen and tell everyone of this wretched place. Your words will speak of all my dreams. When you reach perfection you know decline is on it´s way to bring you down. When you are asleep you know i am always awake and ready to bring you down. I know your wounds still burn. And I know you will leave when the winds turn. When the winds turn, it brings dissonance into the sky. Drift like clouds, and flow like water. Rage like a fire to turn all things black. Become one with the void. BENBLÅST I have been concerned by your futile dreams. Aiming to cause downfall when you cross our stream. There is no mercy when the worst things are cursed. There is no word for this plague that you brought upon us. TRACES Silence is the noise i hear from the world that speaks my name, Infusing my head with a promise of nothing. The meaningless vow resonates and reverberates. Flooding through the sleepers veins, I never dreamed. Lost in reflection, with this obsession to blame. I walk the fine line between forward and rewind. I have foreseen this most vicious storm to come. It will be speechless, It will be violent. Words are buried in the sounds of night. Continue with your ignorance and bring this silence with you till the end Empty shells whispering quietly. They speak to me Of a common past, teaching me how to become insane. To silence the ambivalence that´s in my head; it is the only possible way to avoid the shame. Reminding me that I must suffer through Reminding that I must persist Erasing the traces that you will never find. I hope that you all can forgive me now. I am facing the fact that i am up against fate, so i put it all on the line. Soon it´s time. This time, what I leave behind is my legacy. I will force my mark upon everyone. The traces I leave, they will speak my name. Day after day, reminding myself that my motive will overcome the consequences. I won´t let repentance prevent my way. I will leave you behind. With no regrets. Time passes through me in the shape of a dream, clawing ferociously through my memories. Erasing the traces that you will never find. I hope that you all can forgive me now. I am facing the fact that i am up against fate, so i put it all on the line. Soon it´s time. The clouds are getting darker and the winds are colder now. When I am gone I will be gone. This is irreversible. WHEN NO ONE WALKS WITH YOU I am grasping in vain, to catch the flow of time. In the very same moment as the horns begin to howl, I recognise the deafening tones. They speak of a grief that is to come. Telling me to prepare my escape. I must make my decision; to wait for perdition or get it all together. I must make my decision; because I can´t leave forever. Confronted with this choice, there is no redirection. Look at yourself, look at what you´ve become. You were untouchable. How could you deceive me? I though you would never change. You are shattering foundations once written in stone. If no one will walk with me, then I walk alone. You have been misguided by distorted views. Choking your thoughts without requesting the facts. If you follow given plans, then you will be the fool. When fed by a profiting hand, there will always be a price. When seen in the right light, it becomes so evident. But how can I judge or give you advice, when you give in to temptation and treason. Unable to see the insidious reasons. I tried my best to stand your guard. Discouraging this event. But now, a stunning decline has commenced. It is sundering my final strength. I feel the prescence of defeat. ALL THESE FEELINGS In this night that highlights dawn; I stay dormant, for I have feared this moment. I have feared that this time would come. This is the time. Someone must silence your voice. Vengeful and fierce are the thoughts that i bear with me. The last strain of hope is gone. I am calculating the risk and I am ready for desperate measures now. Thrown into the lion pit, a fight of life. I failed you all, and I am too afraid to become a slave to the base of urges. But a situation like this requires concessions. I will not allow someone like you to destroy what we have. I do not want to be like you, but I have no choice, you leave me no choice. In my eyes; clashing views on everything I am. I take a closer look to see: there are only illusions. Everything that defined me, all I believed has been withdrawn. Reality tears apart itself. Now, tell me that this is not a matter of life and death. This is a matter of life and death. This is my consciousness, my ego, my self-sabotage. This is indispensable. This is what my feelings sounds like. I am more afraid of the ones that obey than of the disease itself. See the signs of this emergence and raise the awareness. It´s time to be resistant. I find so many reasons to why you should be extinct. So many reasons, yet no one will win. So, I will fight this fight for one last night. Fuse together with my painful strife; to be under the knife. As I flex the joints of this hand you might find that you don´t stand a chance. Prepare for impact. Let the darkness commence. And this is where it ends. DECEIT Can you feel the heat that leaks underneath from this resistance that you have created? I defy the curse and then define a new set of rules. This time and your demise can no longer be separated. My veins are expanding and contracting, pulsating in a rapid pace. I can feel this body tremble. Acting brave, I hold my breath. And just as I lift my hand I´m struck by reflections, sprung from the blade. Cutting through the darkened clouds, a piercing light arrive. I remain in the shadow. When this moment opens up and truth unfolds, they will see that you were wrong. You never showed us your face, a bringer of falseness and decay. You always seemed to have excuses to justify your means. To take you out became my aim, but this is so much worse. Your name will be disgraced in shame, as time flows in reverse. Dawn breaks and dissolves your words to dust and haze. It burns your eyes. It kills my need. Bring this dagger when you leave. You must answer for your deceit as the curtain falls. And if you have the courage to watch behind my back, perhaps you will see the assasin lie dead before your feet. It will drag you down to the bottom, and then down into the abyss. THE LONE DERANGER Go ahead and blame me. I keep my head as high as I can. But let these words answer for what i have done, May your judgement not be too heavy upon me; Of course I didn’t know back then. This is not the result that I hoped for. The general misery i have brought upon you. I did not wish for anything to happen. Today, let's look far away from this. Tonight no buildings will collapse. And I know this too shall pass. Grasp your fear with both your hands, you knew that this time would come. Write your worries in the sand, you knew that this time would come. And I will turn my back on you, just like i always do. Just like I´ve always done. We took us through the blood and sand with bloody teeth. Beaten and tired we share what´s lost. Now the moment is over. Now that everyone has seen through my lies, I can not possibly stay. I have to leave. Never has a distance seemed so difficult to undertake. I tear my camp down, brick by brick, the time has come. I have been here before. Now I´m back to square one, when all these feelings had just begun. Grasp your fears with both your hands, you knew that this time would come. Write your worries in the sand, you knew that this time would come. And I will turn my back on you, just like i always do. Just like I´ve always done. Carelessly I wasted my chance, all for the sake of revenge. The taste of sickness can not be described, it slowly wears me down. There are some things inexpressable to those that I leave behind. Determination leads my way. There are some things better left unsaid to those that have never seen this place. You stand your guard and stay behind. I face the heat alone. I take a last look and say farewell, you may never see me again. uneven structure - 8 (EP, 2009) DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR Same patterns repeated. A constant failure process. The fables of fortune remain untold. Delusions of grandeur is defeated as nothingness takes control. vildhjarta - omnislash (EP, 2009) lyrics co-written with r.luciani SHIVER Weakening, slowly breaking down my defence Reasoning, your words must be the cause of my distrust If you give the world a chance It will beat you down to your knees If you try to fight it back It will beat you again and again There’s a pain much greater than any one you can feel through your skin Greater than broken bones, cut up flesh or anything physical When the fabric of you soul is torn to shreds by yourself Or by others, it’s torture If you can feel a shiver at the edge of your mind, Don’t be afraid - you’ve just got your eyes closed. If you feel something brush against your skin Don’t be afraid – just keep your eyes closed The one whose face can launch a thousand ships Has the power to crush the hearts of them all When you are sinking thru the black void of the ocean It’s a continuous discomfort that the world is unforgiving A relentless torrent of punishment An inward glance of your fragile self Can be all to immense to comprehend So turn your eyes of despair towards the sun Forge your will into steel and slice the wind If you give the world a chance It will beat you down to your knees If you try to fight it back It will beat you again and again and again If you can feel a shiver at the edge of your mind, Don’t be afraid - you’ve just got your eyes closed. If you feel something brush against your skin Don’t be afraid – just keep your eyes closed If you give the world a chance It will beat you down to your knees If you try to fight it back It will beat you again and again If you can feel a shiver at the edge of your mind, Don’t be afraid - you’ve just got your eyes closed. If you feel something brush against your skin Don’t be afraid – just keep your eyes closed DON´T FAIL ME NOW (LADY LUCK) The odds outweigh me now I´m facing a calamity from the sky Too much for any one person to bare The air is thick and burnt My friends have succumbed to the pressure Can I face this colossus alone If its true that it always feels darkest Just before it turns pitch black Where will I turn when the fire engulfs me Blistering skin only holy can save me I’m challenging my fate I know my final destination, but not the road I´ve reached as far as I can go Only the lifestream can heal this wound Take me away on a highwind I´m under your wing I´m in your command Lady Luck don´t fail me now I trust in you Put all of your bets on me My fortitude is now put to the test I will stand here strong Until the force devours my soul Like a ghost in a shell, the remains of myself Are strewn across the desert of the real - this battlefield Your prayer’s all that’s left of me - heartfelt angst Dissolving, Releasing I know my final destination, but not the road I´ve reached as far as I can go Only the lifestream can heal this wound Take me away on a highwind I´m under your wing I´m in your command Lady Luck don´t fail me now I trust in you Is this the end…? This isn't the end yet!! Have we done all that we could do We've done all that we could do The lifestream - It's coming. As I remember you I think of the words you said I wasn´t there to save you I´m on my own now I trust in the lifestream The words of my mind are spinning in reverse I summon all my strengh but it turns into dust It doesn´t change anything When are things ever gonna go my way? I´m under your wing I´m in your command Lady Luck don´t fail me now I trust in you